He no like take picture with me… :( good morning! :) (Taken with instagram)
To all those who hate me and think low of me,
Congrats! You made this girl suicidal. I think it is suitable to post this during graduation season. All these youngin’s entering the “real world” don’t realize they will be chewed up and torn apart their first year. So congrats to you too! Half of y’all will think I’m crazy and then another half will think I’m dead on. hahaha. But it don’t matter what you think. This mother who gets criticized every day and then the dirty looks after people find out I’m a mom. Well, I hope you are stronger than I am because these thoughts keep getting to me. I try not to let anyone see it but it does. I guess that’s just LIFE. Keep telling me I’m a screw up and one day I’ll be dead and you can’t take it back. I wonder who will be crying over my dead body or spitting on it.
Have a great summer all! :)
I haven’t been posting
Life has been crazy…too much stuff going on. I feel like I’ve had the highest of highs and no lows and yet I am tired. I am tired of seeing others hurt. I am tired of seeing them at their lowest point. I am tired of knowing that I cannot do a single thing to make their pain go away. I miss when the happiness went around and everyone enjoyed it. I feel like I have been on my own journey away from everyone and have left them to suffer. Almost like they really need me there to be happy but I know that isn’t the truth. I don’t like leaving people behind and it kills me to know their suffering…to feel it. How can God endure this every second of every day from every single person who has ever lived in this world? It must not be so bad if He can endure it. I guess a lot has been on my mind. I don’t want doubt creeping in anymore. I know my God loves me and knows more than I would ever want to know. I think it’s time to go to sleep and rest again.
Happy almost birthday, my son. Tomorrow you will be TWO! :) I love you, Malu! (Taken with instagram)
